I'm standing still, alone on the black top of an empty street. A single lamp overhead casts a sepia tone through the dense fog settling in around me. My eyes look slowly from side to side as I try to make sense of the quiet, peaceful calm I feel despite the horrific awareness that my child has died. The surreal feelings remain as I roll over and spoon his little body next to me in bed, relieved … [Read more...] about The Offers
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Welcome Friend
When I saw I'd missed 3 calls from an old friend in the middle of the night, I almost didn't call her back. My name starts with "A" so I am often butt-dialed. But I was on vacation alone in Washington, so her timing was perfect. Sitting on the edge of a forest, overlooking the ocean and having a long, uninterrupted conversation with an old friend sounded dreamy. "Who is this?" she answered … [Read more...] about Welcome Friend
And She Was
"¿No estoy yo aquí que soy tu madre?" I hadn't expected the drumming. I felt the pounding in my chest before I smelled the copal. Smoke billowed up from the plaza filled with tens of thousands of pilgrims. Dancing, crying, nursing mothers everywhere . . . images of la Virgen were everywhere . . . large statues, faded prints and homemade altars tied on backs, strapped to wheelchairs and s … [Read more...] about And She Was
Mythic Mothering In The Upside Down
"Wherefore, the days will come that no flesh shall be safe upon the waters. . . . and the destroyer rideth upon the face thereof.” D&C 61:15-19 When my 3 year-old son became obsessed with The Nightmare Before Christmas I tried not to be concerned. Sure, it’s a kids movie but I don’t know . . . He was just so little and scary movies have never been my thing. I was raised a member of the C … [Read more...] about Mythic Mothering In The Upside Down
“Happy” Epilepsy Awareness Month
November is Epilepsy Awareness Month and I apologize for not posting earlier. I really tried but found myself bored while reviewing the usual. All stuff we need to share, I'm sure, but I just wasn't feeling any of it. Struggling with my motivation and finding a topic to create awareness around, I sat down to write and decided to simply start where I'm at. Checking in I noticed I'm really, … [Read more...] about “Happy” Epilepsy Awareness Month
